It's been 2 and a half years since my last stage play. Of course, having no money and absolutely nothing to do that won't require my mother nagging me about my current state of bumhood, i just had to come back and do what i have always loved doing.
I'm back in theater, baby!
I was as small as a monggo bean when i started acting. I did a few minor stints in Batibot when i was 6, was casted in a stage play when i was 7, passed acting auditions and got kicked out of the play at 13 (they said i had to focus on my studies coz i was so busy with rehearsals and workshops), did class plays at 16, represented my block for monologue contests at 17, 18, 19 and 20 years old and finally became an apprentice for PETA.
However, PETA did not work well for me as i took MA units in theater at the UP while working. I never got a show for PETA because of all the studying and the work i had to do. Not acting rubbed off on my academic performance in school. I quit. Theater was my first love, and yet it broke my heart and my self-esteem.
My savior was Green Room Artists. They needed talents for some of their plays and Bong of PETA brought us to Direk Roni Bertubin for casting. I was casted for the role of Penchang in El Filibusterismo and the rest is history.
I've been with the company for 6 years. I had a three year hiatus, yes, but i never really left. My heart ached to act in those three years but i had to work to make a living. Theater was great but it doesn't necessarily pay the bills. I believe that theater is something you do "at the side" because you love doing it, but you don't make a career out of it...unless you're Lea Salonga or some pain-in-the-ass big shot Broadway star.
I have a rehearsal later. This is what i like about theater. My problems fade away once i step onto the stage and for 3-4 hours, i'm myself without the shitty bullcrap i face everyday. It's an escape. And i get paid for escaping reality.
My life is at a crossroads now. I have plans for my life that won't guarantee me of a better and more contented life but i guess there's no harm in trying. Theater would help me reach my goal. What you are now shapes your destiny. I don't know if that's a real saying but it sure sounds good. And it makes sense. Shit. I hate this feeling. It sucks.
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it sucks when everyone else seems to be moving forward and yet you feel like you are stranded in a sh*tty sitution. pero sabi nga nila, relax lang, mas madaling umahon kapag mahinahon. dahil kung magkakakawag ka mas lalo kang lulubog.
yuh! Quicksand!
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